No war knows more losers,
No battle's more cruel
Than the bedlam
Of soured love,
Run aground.

Indecision,
Hesitation,
Reservations —
Preludes to regret.

Seeking strength,
All I found were
Liquid reasons,
Slipping through my hands.

Gutter, stage, consolidated,
X-rayed lives, the social race —
Mindlessness over what matters,
Eyes on the praise.

Gratefulness an afterthought,
Basking in the radiance —
How wonderful to see you here,
And thank you for the love.

In blind pursuit of why —
Falling
In patterns,
In scales
Incomprehensible
To the naked I.

You and I walked this road before.
From once upon to ever after,
We learned what follows heartbreak —
Yet, stubbornly,
Resolutely,
Ultimately,
Always keep
Coming back for more.

Obsolete temptations, stirring,
Whispers from a distant once —
Phantom fragrances,
Desires, sensations,
Churning dust of ages past.

Nothing says
I love you, still,
Like simply being there —
Even subtly,
Subconsciously,
In denial,
Unaware.
You're still here,
I see you, for I am too.
After so long,
We both still care.

Going through the motions
Like a bell missing its clapper
That keeps ringing anyway —
You never truly
Had anything to say.

Free, so free.
Nothing can touch you,
Not even yourselves —
Into that sunset,
Never look back,
Oh, you glorious
One trick ponies.

In the end, none of it is meant
But through ignorance and pain.
Hazardous, the path of knowledge —
Quests for meaning stray endlessly
From obsession to insanity,
And back again.

Media to feed the fiction,
Locks to keep the world outside —
An antidote with barely
Truth enough to chill their bottle lies,
Selling by the bloody dozen.

Reality, a storm of
Clashing single-cell perceptions,
Seeking dominance in alienation
Of all but the self —
Seeking heaven, raising hell.

Crossfire interplay,
Victims of the war
We wage inside —
Taking both sides.

Siphoning a little extra,
Who would notice,
Who could care?
Once, twice,
Often, structurally —
Stream,
Trickle,
Drop.

Tweaked perception,
Biased observation —
Before the light
Hits our eyes,
It's hindsight.

Left unspoken,
Left unheard,
I put to bed
Hurt unaddressed —
Librarian to the departed,
Speaker for the sad.

Wallowing in frustration,
Blanket pain, bottomless grief —
Any dark sensation beats
The too familiar numbness
Of not feeling.

Such futile
Self-indulgence —
If this is freedom,
I can't believe
We paid for this.