Impatient
In absence,
In anticipation —
Involuntary knots
At the bottom of
The emptiness within.

Caught in a haze,
Gray moods
On a sunny day —
How does one fill
Emptiness?

Movers, shakers,
Trigger fingers,
Bought the world
To take it with them —
Risen to the top
To self-destruct.

Patiently waiting —
Mind spinning,
Heart racing —
For normalcy to return
To the outlines
Of you and me.

Come back in,
The safest place —
I'll dry my eyes
And hold you
While we wait
For my storm
To subside.

Although I know
The feeling’s there,
I need a gesture
To show
That you still care.

Forgiveness begins
With a ladder
We climb together —
Openness,
Honesty,
Respect.
Only at the very top
May we find
Our one way back.

Lean into me,
Share our tears,
Your overcast,
Dark as mine —
I let go, become
The darkened sky.

Blind my foolish pride,
Conceal blue skies
So I may feel the rain.
Please guide my selfish mind astray
And get me lost,
To find myself again.

Trying parts
Like fitting clothes,
Looking for both
Flair and function —
Who am I within this skin,
And will it help me
Sell my script
To those not looking
All too closely?

Post-trust honesty,
Untimely insincerity
Seasoning a too-fresh wound —
What do you expect of me?

Love, respect, and unity,
Come and share
The world with me.

Wavering connection —
Contrast in moments
Make one feel
So alone.

Not to judge you,
Not to hurt you,
But this is how I feel.
Take from that
What you like,
Just don't misread my intent,
Sharing my pain,
Up to my neck in your wake.

Sleep, routine, and caffeine,
Onwards like a
Good little machine —
Never stop to question life,
Never pause to wonder why,
Happiness, supposedly
Only a few restless nights away.

Confide, relate,
Heart connection —
Feel the feels,
Embrace the talk.

The scales of insecurity,
Honesty and validation —
Lie to me just enough
To soothe the tender me.

Happiness in little gestures,
Three little words
Encapsulated,
Wordlessly expressed
In a love language all our own.

Hope floats,
Hearts sink,
Love bears —
Hold on.
I'll always be here.

It's but a scratch
And it will heal,
I will survive
This bleeding heart —
Will simply sort through
All my feelings,
And bury all that hurts.